But without faith it is impossible to [walk with God and] please Him, for whoever comes near to God must [necessarily believe that God exists and that He rewards those who [earnestly and diligently] seek Him. (Hebrews 11:6, AMPC)
When I say it’s been a journey, I mean it! Wow! Two years ago, God put it on my heart to custom design a book for the sex traffic industry. I remember thinking, really? Me? I don’t know much about this. I’ve never been in the clubs. I have such a limited scope on this subject. Yet, God wanted to use me. Isn’t that how it works?
But God has selected [for His purpose] the foolish things of the world to shame the wise [revealing their ignorance], and God has selected [for His purpose] the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong [revealing their frailty]. (1 Corinthians 1:27, AMPC)
Yep, that pretty much sums it up! God knew He would get the glory in all of this as I took one feeble step at a time through The Priceless Journey. Every testimony for the book, every word meticulously looked over, every design element… all of it was Him guiding me, revealing the next step I needed to take!
It’s been a faith journey in many ways. It’s brought me to life in a way that I haven’t felt alive in a long time. Ever since I was a little girl all I ever wanted to do was share Jesus with people. It’s a desire that went down deep in my heart and has never gone away.
Throughout my life, I have had the opportunity to lead a women’s jail ministry, mentor teen moms and truant teens, volunteer in soup kitchens and nursing homes, go door to door in the projects of New Jersey, street witness on the streets of Brooklyn, and so much more. But somewhere along the way I got lost a little bit. Life got crazy. My health went haywire. Medication changed the essence of who I was a little bit at a time and numbed some of my desires. It took me two years to completely get off of all of it, but something inside still wasn’t the same. Slowly but surely I have felt myself come back to life in the last six years. Little things that I had lost like the taste of food, the emotions of life, my creative side, the writer in me, and so much more.
In fact, I have been completely free from medication since June 7th, 2011. I have the bag of them still sitting in my closet as a daily reminder of how far I have come. Since then, I have published six books and had two babies. Life has been full and beautiful, but still something was missing. That part of me that just wants to share Jesus with as many people as I can got dulled down a little bit. I held back in some ways because it seemed that my love for the Lord became too intense for people. I became a quieter version of myself, not asking the questions I once asked like “what is God teaching you?” or “how has God come through for you lately?” It was innocent! I didn’t mean to lose that part of myself and in many ways I didn’t realize that I had.
But as God called me forward in this new adventure of customizing a book for women in the sex traffic industry, something came alive in me. A freshness has come over my soul and given me such a drive to know my Savior. My prayers have changed. The way I talk to people has changed. There is a raw dependence on the Lord that has come out of this beautiful journey. My heart has been renewed and I feel like I’m becoming the best version of myself that I have ever been in my life. I’m getting more time with the Lord because honestly I crave that more than anything. And the time I spend with Him is reinvigorating me. It’s teaching me that I just need more of Him.
So yes, this started as a book to reach others but it’s become more about my journey with the Lord and what He wants to teach me. I’m in a good place with Him as He daily helps me see that one step at a time is the perfect way to travel with Him. He’s my guide through all of this and if something good comes out of me and this journey, I promise it’s all Him. There is a lot of ugliness in my heart, things I’m not proud of, but as I spend time with the Lord I become who He designed me to be. A woman surrendered to His purpose. Not perfect! Far from it actually! And I’m okay with that! I have a perfect Father and on Him I will always depend.
Thankful that God is bringing my heart to life again and giving me a place to serve Him. A place to be the light shining from the hill. A place of beauty from ashes. I’m thankful that I serve the One who does the best work! Always! Yes, God is Always Faithful!
Would you like to join me in this journey? There are women all across our country who need to hear the message of redemption in Jesus Christ. Maybe the testimony God entrusted to you could be the thing that gives them hope. To learn more about The Priceless Journey, how you can donate to the project, how you can purchase the books for your ministry, and to keep up to date on what God is doing you can go to my Priceless page.
Lord, it’s exciting to be apart of what You are doing! Please help me to stay focused. Thank you more than anything for giving me a place to serve You, for giving me my health back, and for restoring my vision! I’m eternally grateful to be walking step by step in faith to Your call on my life. May Your Holy Spirit continue to guide my steps as I trust in You for what’s to come!
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