She said, “Oh sir, such grace, such kindness—I don’t deserve it. You’ve touched my heart, treated me like one of your own. And I don’t even belong here!” ~Ruth 2:13
You Are Cherished
Having worked in the sex industry for six years, I had so much shame and guilt. I did so many horrible things that I lost control of my life. I was a horrible person; I did not care about anything and I lost sight of being a mother. I went into the industry on my own, and just got stuck in that life because the money was addicting. In the midst of that, I was searching for love that I never had from my father. I started when I was 19 years old because I thought I wasn’t smart enough for school.
Six years later, I ended up in jail for armed drug trafficking, the charges I took for a man I thought loved me. I had so much fear for this man because he had beaten me a couple times that I took the charges so he would not be upset with me. After telling the cops I would take full responsibility for everything, I was facing a minimum of three years in prison.
After a week of realizing this guy was not going to bail me out, I broke down and got on my knees and cried out to God. I just told Him all that had happened in my life and I told Him how sorry I was. God was spiritually operating on my heart in jail. You see, I loved that man so much, and at that point in my life I had given my heart to many men in sacrificial ways that in jail I felt worthless.
With a lot of time to think, I started to read the Bible and pray. I learned that, even through my shame from my sex life, my job, my sins, and these charges, Jesus still loved me. I found out that Jesus looks at me as a beautiful woman who does have worth. One day after much thought, I decided to give my life to Jesus and I asked Him to wash all of my sins away. With sincerity, I gave Him my word I would not go back to that life and surrendered my life to Him. It was the most freeing thing I have ever experienced. God gave me GRACE! I know if God can give me grace, He can give you grace, too, because He loves you so much. God loves you more than any man can ever love you! He gave up His only Son Jesus to die for your freedom.
Jesus said, “Daughter, you took a risk trusting me, and now you’re healed and whole. Live well, live blessed!” ~ Luke 8:48
Jesus, I’m sorry for all the bad things I have done. Please rewrite my history and make me new. I believe You died for my sins. My shame is here for You to wipe clean. I love You Jesus and I accept You into my life. Thank You for Your grace upon my life.
I am cherished. I am beautiful. I am valued. I am a new creation and my past does not define me. Today, I will Trade my guilt for His grace. I am priceless!